I’m sitting here in a diaper…

So, like the title says, I’m sitting here in an actual diaper.  It’s something J and I do every once in awhile.  It’s nothing to do with age play, just another previously-agreed-upon way J can show his dominance.

J has an easy day today and will be home most of the day, so we got to sleep in a few minutes later than normal and we got in some extra cuddling time, too!

After our showers, J gently pushed me back on the bed. He raised my legs in the “diaper position” and gave me a quick, but firm,  hand spanking. He said he wanted to make sure I was ready to get back into our normal weekly routine, and he couldn’t think of a better way to start the day.

He then informed me I’d be wearing a diaper all day.  We have the pull up kind, so I still go to the bathroom as usual, but I have to ask permission to do so, and J is the only one who can take off my diaper. I started to protest because I have several things to do outside of the house today, and will also be seeing a colleague of J’s, briefly.  A stern look from J was all it took for my protests to cease.

I always feel like everyone can tell when I’m wearing a diaper, but they are actually surprisingly thin and I don’t think anyone would notice unless they were specifically looking for it. At least I hope no one notices! I’m not sure how I would explain that. LOL!

Spanked To Start The Week

J and I spent last weekend with friends at their cabin, so there were no spankings of any kind.  These are good friends of ours, but they’re vanilla, as far as we can tell.  I often find myself longing to let some of our friends into the spanking side of our life, but I don’t want to make anyone uncomfortable if they don’t understand it.

We had a great time hiking through the woods during the day, and relaxing in their hot tub at night.

Initially J was going to spank me on Friday before we left, but we ran out of time. So I went the whole weekend without one spanking.  That hasn’t happened in ages.  There were a few times where J whispered to me, “I can’t wait til I can spank you.” And that just sent tingles through my body every time.

Sunday night, after we unloaded the car, I was standing in front of the washer throwing in a quick load of laundry.  J came up behind me and said, “When you’re finished there, go wait for me in the bedroom.” He kissed my neck and ear, making me shiver.

I was still taking my clothes off when J came into the room. He sat down on the bed and guided me over his lap.  He spanked me with his hand for a good long while, before picking up a strap, and then finally a wooden paddle.  He said he was giving me extra spanking time since we missed 3 days, and he wanted to make sure I start the week off right. At the end, I felt thoroughly spanked and didn’t have any trouble getting back into the swing of things this week.

I’m Free!

The last 2 weeks were rough without having my normal access to the TV, my phone, or my computer.  But my grounding is officially over this morning!

This was my first time being officially grounded for any length of time.  I went through countless feelings and emotions about it.  Sometimes I felt resentful, sometimes bored, sometimes I felt like a great wife, sometimes I felt genuinely taken care of, sometimes thankful, even blissful at moments. It was topsy turvy, especially the first week.

During the times I was resenting our way of life, I would think about the fact that I could stop this at any time with just one word.  In addition, J and I can talk at any time and reevaluate our rules, our punishments, our situation, how we’re feeling, etc.  And that’s when I would think about the positives.

One of my favorite things about being grounded (did I really just say that?? LoL), is that our house is spotless.  It’s always clean, but I had time to do extra stuff, like wipe down baseboards, clean the vents, repolish a  handrail, clean window tracks, deep clean the grout in the kitchen, you get the idea.

Every day I ached a little less for my phone, but it never totally went away. I am glad to have it back. And I am happy to have 3 lunch dates already for next week. I missed my social life!

J says my mood has been much better, especially this past week. He also tells me I’ve been more submissive, which pleases him. I and I love pleasing my J.

Overall, I had a lot of time to think about J’s reasons for grounding me and in the end I feel good about everything. Although it’s not something I’m looking to repeat anytime soon.  LoL!

 

My Tone Wasn’t Exactly Agreeable

Normally I wouldn’t be online right now, since I’m technically still grounded. But J is letting me catch up on a few things, since we have a lot of down time today. And he wanted me to blog about this while it was still fresh in my mind.

As part of our agreement to each other, I do not say no to J, sexually. On Friday night before bed he was guiding my head down and I made a sound that he took as a protest. To be fair, my tone wasn’t exactly agreeable.

We were both tired and J agreed to wait until morning to punish me. I slept well, even though in the back of my mind, I was thinking about the spanking I would be receiving tomorrow.

On Saturday morning we had a nice leisurely breakfast, and cuddled on the couch while we caught up on some of our DVR’d shows. Around noon, J told me to go upstairs and wait for him. Of course, I knew to take off all my clothes while I was waiting. Not long after, J came upstairs and retrieved some of his favorite pussy spanking implements. This included a belt, a riding crop, and a light strap.

He sat on the bed, leaned against the headboard and motioned me to him. He guided me down to the bed, and first sat me on his lap, facing him, with my legs wrapped around his waist. He gently laid me backwards and spread my legs wide. He raised my bent legs up and had me hold onto my feet, almost like I was sitting indian style, but with my legs in the air. He had complete access to my pussy this way. He scooted me back a little bit, so he could get better aim and more swing.

He rubbed my clit for a minute with his thumb, and when I moaned in pleasure, he gave me a quick swat with his hand. I am currently not allowed to cum, and J loves bringing me close to the edge.

J started out by reiterating the rules we agreed on and asking me if I was still ok with them (yes).

He said he was going to punish me by spanking my pussy, as we had previously discussed and agreed upon. Starting with the lightest strap, J spanked me with increasing intensity. He switched to his hand and then to the riding crop. He used both the flappy end and the cane-like part of it. The swats were coming hard and fast now, but with the position I was in, there was little I could do to avoid them. When J picked up the belt, he used one hand to keep my lips spread far apart and he slapped right on my clit, super hard and fast. It was hard to take, but I just kept thinking about how easily I could have avoided being in this position, both literally and figuratively (LoL). J spanked my pussy for longer than he normally does and made sure to thoroughly cover every inch.

He stopped and gently pulled me to him.

“That’s enough for now, but this punishment isn’t over. You can get dressed, but leave the belt and crop out.” His voice was gentle but stern.

I’m not sure what J originally had planned, because we got invited to a last minute get together and didn’t get home until late in the evening. We both practically fell into bed.

Today (Sunday), J and I spent extra long in bed this morning having fun and chatting. J even brought me up some tea and let me lounge in bed even longer while he had a shower.

Afterwards, he got me in one of his favorite pussy spanking positions where I’m laying on the bed, on my back with my head on the pillow, just how I would be if I were sleeping, except my knees are bent and my legs are spread as wide as they will go. J stands next to the bed and is at a different angle than last night, but has equally good access to my entire region.

With no hesitation he brings the belt down at what feels like full force and spanks rapidly, without pause. Tears spring to my eyes, but do not fall. The belt hits me in a slightly different way than it did last night. When I’m in this position, the end of the implement is toward my ass. The position I was in last night, the end of the implement is toward my belly, so the worst of the sting tends to be in a different place.

There was nothing playful about this spanking, it was definitely a consequence for breaking a previously agreed upon rule. And since it’s probably the rule I break the most, the punishments have gotten a little more intense. J rarely pushes my limits, though, so it’s never anything I can’t handle.

Once my spanking was over , J said, “We’re going to keep doing this, do you understand?”

“Yes.”

I’m still grounded until Wednesday, so I won’t be back online until then. If you comment or send an email, I will read it as soon as I can.

Grounded and spanked.

For the past week I have been grounded. And I still have 1 more week to go. Normally I wouldn’t be allowed on the computer at all, but J wanted me to update the blog, since that is one of the things that started this. J doesn’t normally go to these extreme measures but I have gotten so far behind in everything lately he felt nothing else would get me back into any sort of routine.

Months ago there was an event that caused J to have to increase the amount of time he spent working. It is temporary, but it has affected our schedules, our time together, and our playing. The only benefit, for me, has been that I have been able to accompany him on his business trips, so I have been doing a great deal of traveling.

J has still been spanking me with some regularity, but there have a lot of times missed. To say the least, I haven’t been quite as on top of things as I normally would be.

A couple of weeks back, J commented that he hadn’t had time to read my blog in ages, and he apologized. I told him I hadn’t written anything in ages, so I don’t think he has missed anything. He asked why I let the blog go and didn’t keep it maintained. I was unable to come up with a satisfactory answer.

I could see he was disappointed. He told me he was sorry he did not do a good job of keeping me motivated, and that he noticed I was slipping in other areas, too. Honestly, he’s been doing the best he can, there hasn’t been an abundance of time recently.

I thought the matter was over, but that night in bed, J asked me to update the blog. He said to think about it for a week and then write. I said I would do that.

“And one more thing.”

“Yes?”

“You’re grounded for 2 weeks.”

“Uh…what does that even mean?”

J went on to explain that for the next 2 weeks my tv, phone, and computer privileges were going to be limited. The things that could not be avoided would be done under his supervision only. Other than previously scheduled events, I was not to plan anything social for these 2 weeks. I was allowed to do chores and read, but not much else.

He also added, “You’re not cum during this time either.
At the end of 2 weeks we will reevaluate and see how things look.”

We have gotten to the end of the first week and my house is cleaner than it’s been in a long time, I’ve gotten plenty of reading done, and plenty of spankings, too!

I’ll either be updating you in a week, or I’ll else I’ll probably be standing in a corner somewhere! LOL!

Moving Right Along

I don’t have much to report this week. We’ve been moving right along with the daily spankings.  I’ve been staying motivated to get everything completed without too much trouble.

Gladly, I have not yet earned myself a serious punishment spanking. The things I’ve set out to accomplish have been getting done.

Not to say we haven’t been having any fun.  J still likes to swat my ass for fun and pleasure.  The other night, we were watching TV and hadn’t yet closed the windows, even though it was dark outside.

J had the bright idea of pulling me half over his lap and half over the edge of the couch and giving me a “gentle” “fun” spanking.  HE says it’s gentle and fun.  I say it’s not so gentle and just a little fun! LOL!

He first stripped me of all clothing. We don’t have close neighbors, so I wasn’t too worried about anyone seeing or hearing us, but it still feels very exposing to have the windows open with nothing between you and the outside except for a screen.

After a few moments, J slipped his hand lower and could feel how wet I was.  He rubbed my clit with me still over his lap and the couch. He told me not to cum until he said I could.  It is so hard to hold back when he does this!  Finally he said “cum for me”, which I did almost immediately. Afterwards he pulled me to him and wrapped his arms around me.

After I recovered, he gently pushed me down to my knees in front of him and told me to open my mouth. He guided his penis to my waiting tongue. He was already so turned on that it didn’t take him too long to cum.  Lucky for me, he did not make me swallow. He gave me a few seconds warning, and then came on his stomach.  I was nice enough to fetch a washcloth and clean him up, though!

We spent the rest of the evening contentedly relaxing next to each other.

Getting Things Done & Paying Attention

This week, I have a longer list of things I need to do, due to some friends of ours coming to visit for the weekend.  I left a few things for the last minute and J asked me a few times how my list was coming along.

I am mildly addicted to this game on my phone and after dinner last night, I was playing, as usual. J again asked me how my list was coming and I mumbled something that was not a satisfactory answer.

Being hyper focused on the game, I just wasn’t thinking.

J immediately said, “Stand Up.”

My head snapped up and at first, I started to say I would get right on those chores.

J said, “This isn’t even about that, it’s about you ignoring me when I’m trying to have a conversation with you.”

“Oh” was all I could really say.

I stood up and J guided me to a bent position over the arm of our couch.
Conveniently I was wearing a skirt with nothing under it, which is something J prefers, so it’s my go to house attire.

I heard him take off his belt as he was saying, “What if I was telling you something important?”

“I would’ve tuned in if you were.”

“I’m not so sure. You need to take your head out of that game once in awhile.”

At that, J lifted my skirt and swatted each cheek with the belt 3 times, very quickly and I let out a small yelp after each one.

It really wasn’t so bad, and I was quickly eyeing my phone, ready to get back to my game.

However, J wasn’t finished.
“Hand me your phone,” he said.

“What?”
“You heard me.”
“But I was just about to…”

J interrupted and said, “Whatever is happening in your game can wait until tomorrow.”

“What if I get an emergency call?” I argued.
“I’ll have your phone, so I’ll see it.”

I reluctantly handed over my phone, and he put it in his shirt pocket, where I could see it.

J explained, “You are grounded from your game and your phone for the rest of the evening. You can have it back at bedtime.”

I somehow managed to get through the rest of the night without my phone.

And today I finished all but 1 thing I need to do before the weekend.
Now, I must get back to my game!

Getting to Cum & New Morning Pussy Spanking

In my last blog I said I’d tell you about getting to cum 2 weeks ago.

So, here’s the story.  J told me I was allowed to cum as soon as I swallowed his cum.  I held out for 2 whole weeks, simply because I do not like to swallow.  The taste and texture is extremely unpleasant. But my clit was throbbing and so swollen.

So one evening I knelt in front of J and started giving him head.  When he was close he asked if I was ready and I nodded.  Three spurts later and I had swallowed it all.  It went down fairly easy because of the angle, but it still took hours before the taste went away.

Afterwards, J rewarded me with his amazing fingers.  They danced all over my clit and in and out of my various holes. I came so hard that I literally cried.

It took a few days after that for me to get back into a submissive headspace. Because of that, J has decided I will not be allowed to cum very often. When I am kept constantly in a constantly horny state, not only am I much more submissive, I also want J’s cock all the time.  So, of course he loves that.

We’ve added morning pussy spankings to our daily repertoire. It’s not that I’m not being submissive, but when I am this horny, it is hard to keep my hands above my waist.  This is J’s reminder to me that I am not allowed to cum.  And it also helps to remind me that I asked to be submissive to him.

So in the mornings, after we shower, J has been leading me to the bed, having me lay on my back, and holding my legs up and spread, and he whips me with a strap or a belt on my pussy lips. He spanks me a few times very hard and very quickly.

My clit is throbbing and just begging for some attention and release. There have been a few times when I’ve reached my fingers down and started fondling my lips, but then I notice they are a bit sore and I remember the morning spanking and I withdraw my hand. So it would seem J knows what he’s doing by administering these morning reminders. Not that I had any doubt.

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Not Allowed to Cum

We knew when we bought this house that we’d have some projects. Unfortunately, largely due to my procrastinating, we hadn’t made much progress. However, in the past couple of months we’ve gotten several of them completed and are working toward the next one.

J says it’s amazing how much better my attitude is and how much more motivated I am with daily spankings. We will be continuing these daily spankings, since they seem to be doing so much good for us.

We always have a lot of fun when I’m hot and horny all the time, so J has decided that I am not allowed to cum. But, there is something I can do to change that. Like most men, J loves getting head. He likes it even more when I swallow. I do not enjoy that part at all. J says if I want to cum, I can….as soon as I swallow his cum. It’s been 2 weeks so far and I want to cum so badly that I’m squirming in my seat!

J likes to spread my legs open and rub my clit until I’m so close to cumming, while he tells me not to cum. It’s so difficult, but I know that if I do cum, I’ll receive a pussy spanking. And not like the daily ones. This will be a punishment spanking, which I definitely do not want. So I concentrate very hard on not cumming.

I’m not going to be able to hold out much longer, though. J likes teasing me, so I know this is fun for him, but he’ll be really glad when I finally swallow.

Standing in the Corner, Waiting & Reflecting

Before every spanking, I remove all of my clothes and stand in the corner, while I wait for J. I usually end up standing there for 10 to 20 minutes. During this time I can clearly think about the spanking I am about to get, and the reasons why, without any distractions.

For the daily motivation spanking, this means that I think about how many more things I’ve been able to get done since we started this, how much more motivated I have been, how these spankings seem to keep me going when I want to stop. The spankings hurt, but when I imagine what a punishment spanking would feel like, it makes me stick to accomplishing the things I said I would.

For the daily submission spankings, I think about how J works so hard at his career and he provides for us in many ways to give us this charmed life, there’s no reason why I can’t give him the pleasure he desires. I told him I would be sexually submissive to him, and when he spanks my pussy I am reminded of this. And again, I would not want to get a punishement spanking, so this is a good reminder of how much worse that would be.

By the time J comes in, I am usually in a submissive mood and ready to get spanked. J doesn’t lecture me all the way through the spankings, but he does go over the things we’ve discussed and always asks me if I disagree with anything or if anything needs to be altered in the way we are doing things. So far the only thing we’ve changed is the weekends are now off days, as far as spankings go. We are just too busy and we have found it is good to relax from all the weekly demands.